December 19 – LB

I saw Janelle’s Entry on LB’s memorial page today. I miss him so much and still can not make it through more than a couple of days without replaying events and wishing for an alternat ending…. 

“Loren,

It has almost been a year since you left us, and yet you feel so close. I have been thinking about you a lot lately. I can’t stop wishing you were here. I wish you were here for my dad, and for my family. I wish you were still here so we could be here for you.

I am terribly sad to think of the pain you were in. Every time I think if you or a memory of you, I try to hold on to it so tight in hopes I might actually go back to that moment.

Thank you for the memories, the happiness, the laughter and the love you graciously gave to me and my family. We all love you. I love you. I miss you.”

Janelle Lavin, Seattle, WA